I am so pissed off right now

[PolakoMafia]

I want to this bar alone to get some breather from my family on this Monday night, and it seemed like a nice classy bar with nice music. So I was sitting alone drinking a beer and being ignored by women like I always am, and in front of me was this mirror I could see things going on behnid me. So after awhile here comes in this group of guys about 3-4 where one of them seems quite durnk and talking about fighting all the time. Like he wanted to fight someone or something and it didnt happen and asked one of them at one point if hed have his back. Anyway after ahwile I thought I saw him almost tyr to punch me but his friend grabbed his hand, and over and over after that he kept throwing these shadow boxing type el;bows at me while I was turned around away form him and could see it in the mirror. I totally lost alls elf dignity and respect I had and got punked cause instead of turning around and starting to hit him with all my might I simply got up (probably because of fear and multiple people facing me possibly) and walked right by him while rubbing myself against him to what at that time I thought would show him something and went to the bathroom and sat on the other side of the bar. I should have came in there with my knife and simply hit him and if his friends went at me pulled it out or stabbed them. I feel so freaking weak and stupid right now. He totally disrespected me right in front of me and his friends and possibly others in the bar like I was nothing.

the thing is people like that usually use me as a target when they pick targets or look for ppl to take their anger out on cause i was alone and sitting in the middle of a stool away from two groups (there was another guy by himself next to me but he was seated closer to the edge than middle). And also cause I am young and have gentle eyes, people like that look for the person who they think would least likely respond or fight them I think. Stuff like that has been happening most of my life. I am also more aware and have more awarness around my surroundings than other ppl so I notice it. It was that bar on second st. kind of close to la salles but on the edge of the street, like perpendicular to it between broadway and main. From now on Im carrying a foldable knife (legal) everytime I go out.

[Sentenza]

You worry about the wrong things Invincible. Pay more attention to more important things in life.

[perongregory]

You worry about the wrong things Invincible. Pay more attention to more important things in life.

couldn't hve said it better...your searching to prove yourself is going to lead you to being fucked in one way or the other.

[alexalonso]

if you would have did something you would have went to jail.

[razbojnik]

They provoked me today too, my friends. Especially my best friend. But in the end they were all joking around. Thing is I love adrenaline and being pissed is good for getting myself out of certain situations like if I'm pissed I look at someone I'll keep looking till he turns his head no matter what. But if I'm normal and happy I can't go on for long if the other guy can more than me in a staring contest. And adrenaline is also good for my condition. When I'm pumped up and ready to fight I'm more energetic and get tired in a longer period of time doing physical activity. Well, they provoked me, ignored me, tried to quiet me down, and it was a joke to them and they blamed me for getting pissed over it. You know what went through my mind when we were walking beside the river and then beside the stores?

Since because of my sheer size and power, I don't want to hit anyone and I don't want to start a fistfight, so:

While walking beside Otinja(the river), if someone says one little fucking thing, that's it, I'll grab them from behind and throw them in the river on the grass, no matter how high the wall is.

While walking beside the stores, if someone says one little fucking thing, that's it, I'll grab them from behind and throw them into the glass display window of the stores, better they get cut up then me having to pound them.

But you know what happened? No one said shit. We went into Business Pub, we had Palacinjki(omg sooo good) and Piroski(I need to try these) and water. I got even more pissed at the fact that my friend was happy when I was pissed and upset laughing and telling about stories about how much fun they had with fucking Gavrilov and Angelov and other punks they knew years later before he knew me which I've known him since fucking birth, and it's usually like this and was the opposite before he pissed me off, but then, the fire inside of me, the adrenaline, being pissed, it blew out overtime cause they smiled and made positive comments to me, especially my best friend since fucking birth which made my day a little better. So I resumed to be the happy self. They started that shit again, well my best friend. But this time I'm like WHAT THE FUKK IS WRONG WITH YOU GUYS?! STOP THIS FUKKING SHIT! So he laughed and said omg you take it seriously. Ok so I figured they were joking. So we went on for about 20 minutes back and fourth showing teeth my friend trying to trick me again making it seem like he was serious and testing me trying to get me to back off but I kept just laughing and playing along. He bought a movie about some chimp and some baby, got on the motorcycle with Mico/Miki and they went to their house to drop it off and yeah. Then Basti, omg. That's another story. Marija my ass. He tried to show that text messege I sent him about her giving me a blowjob at the pool to fucking girls, OMG!!! So I chased him around the park till he didn't. Then this girl stepped on my sunflower seeds when she sat down on the bench and like took out half of them, I just looked at her and yeah she got up apologized I'm like lol it's ok it's only 25 cents for like 100 grams jeez. Then we went around and I came home with a taxi because I'm scared to go in the dark. 40 dinars down the tube because of my phobia of ghosts and shit.

So yeah.

Oh another interesting thing happened. We were sitting on a bench in the park where kids my age make out and shit in the dark making fun of people as they pass so because no one knows my number we decided to fuck around with someone by sending him a threatening text messege, Emil, I'm cool with him now, but my best friend sent the messege through my phone so him and his brother were playing basketball at the time and his brother is this fucking criminal knows alot of criminals alot of people who live to fight, so when I was in Square Pub with some friends Conkata is like this your fucking number lol. Omg. They gathered up literally 200 people to come and kill me. He cleared it up.

Then fucking Victor Angelov. First I see his fucked up forehead at San Remo, he comes from behind while I'm sitting and grabs me by the shoulders in a strong rubbing motion, so we shake hands despite the fact I'm going to kill him no matter what, I just get up, look at my friend and sit down. He is the only asshole that smokes in the damn bar.

Then at the pool he fucking jokes around to some kid about be careful he might eat you. Omg.

Then at Chardak Resturaunt Bar whatever he yells so damn much omg he yells out my name I pull out my hand to say hi he says Hail Hitler. Omg. Then he makes fun of Basti(waiter, same age as us) and tells him to check on Dame's motorcycle cause Victor and Victor and jelous of it and shit and Basti gets pissed and tells the other waiter to assist Victor's table cause Basti(real name Sabastian) gonna bust a fucking nut and throw some glasses and around and maybe use his knife to cut Victor's leg like he did with some shit he got drunk after that night lol... Then Victor wishes everyone a great dinner and may it be their last. So a girl wishes it back to him.

Then at the park he tells me to walk foot by foot slowly to the fountain to drink water not to fall down or whatever, idk what he meant with that but whatever. I should've told him head for head go fall off the motorcycle again and die you fuck but that would be starting a fight, cause Victor Angelov fell off his motorcycle and fucked up his head even Dame is sad he didn't die that moment I was happy he just fell off cause he fucked with me last summer.

Then I was pissed(angry) one night I was catching up to my friends getting back from taking a piss at Ice, a nightclub(they see it as a joke cause Ice is pretty damn far from the park) so Victor Angelov again pops up all of a sudden and he says like Oh what's the matter Petarce you look red and very tortutred to me I chuckle say ok and continue to my friends.

LOL I feel bad for the guests from Sweden staying over here I mean in Western culture a 15 year old driving a motorcycle like that looks pretty damn vicious and delinquent like, aka cool. The one from Serbia or Croatia where was he I forgot the old guy with them he feels bad because fucking Macedonia and Serbia and all that was Yugoslavia went to shit after returning here after like 20 years in Sweden. Heh. That's capitalism.

Alot of fun crazy shit in a short time. Omg RENATA IS SOOO HOT. She's 20 but who gives a shit. I love Macedonian girls. If they know you a few days as a Macedonian guarenteed by Macedonians they've known for a long time, they won't call you a rapist or complain if you hug them all of a sudden, or even kiss them, they'll like it. DD

Invincible, damn it, don't be scared. Also, yeah, I care about these things. But I have one goal in life, just as my Sagattarius zodiac sign, it says the life persuit is to live the good life --- this means every time I feel like killing someone or putting someone in a wheelchair or making them a vegatable or putting them in a coma, I think about the concequences and how a little thing like this could fuck up my future and then I can't reach my bigger grand plan the ultimate goal my big agenda, because of one little fucking thing.

Keep going for it and you'll make it. I belive anything is possible. If it means I want to fly like Superman instead of Criss Angel then fuck it I'll go for it by learning how to fly like Criss Angel first building to building then like Superman. ;D