So how many of u guys beside me ever egt caught up in shiz

[PolakoMafia]

It was in Claremont by the way. A crappy little socal town full of pu@@y white prep people and a bunch of thugs who went there from pomona. I had no self identity, I could not belong in either group./ I was too poor to fit in with the jocks and lived in these crappy almost in Pomona but still in Claremont aparements with my mom while she was going to nursing school at the time. ANd was too white to fit in with any of the other more grimey groups. And everything the black people on this site say is true and I witnessed it. I witnessed the cowardice of these whites. There was this n@eer named Janton or Yanton or something who would run around a classroom doing anything he wanted and would say pedophile stuff even and no one would have the balls to say anything to him like I remember he said "You suk kock slow lilke a little girl" to this Nigerian n@eer who also would pretty much runa round doing anything he wanted and saying anythign to the white people there he wanted. WHy couldnt these people just band together against them or do something?

[punamusta]

Polako,

Start practising some internal martial art (not any of that MMA/kickboxing type of shit, but something real with philosophical side in it). And not in some mall with some silly teacher, but in some real school with real teacher. Then listen to him and read Sun-Tzu's "Art of War" to understand the philosophy of fighting. So many young men think that to be a man you must punch the lights out of anyone who disrespects you in any way. The real man is a man who don't need to fight. Look ways to avoid the fights and not how to beat up someone. Everytime you have avoided a fight, you have won. And you shouldn't feel bad about it.

[PolakoMafia]

I need to fight my own demons to save my reality like Manson saved his. NO matter how much I used to train it only made me more insecure and more self aware because I would always back out and later feel crappy about myself. The only time I had any balls was when I didnt know how easily it is to be beaten up or jumped by multiple people and had more confidence due to not knowing my weaknesses and having the experience of being jumped. I just want to be tough and respected, I dont want to ever back out but I always have inhibitions and do it automatically in general and no physical tranining can help this I need mental training. I need to not have fear and when I see a tatted up Mexican or huge guy I need to not have fear but I always do. Like I mentioned I think some black chick I paid for her cover to this club and she seemed all into me and all and the bytch threw me away for some other guy knew and saw in the club and he had his hand all over her and I went up to her tried to talk to see what was going on and he started telling me to get lost and totally disrespecting me. instead of attakcing me I was too self aware of the bouncers around and possibly people sitting nearby or his friends fighting for him and all this crap and didnt even do anything. I even had a pepper spray in my pocket. ALl I did was stood there trying to motivate my psyche to attack and hope he will say somethign worse and motivate me more and just kept asking her "do you want me to leave" without even looking at him every time he kept saying to get lost and she sat there not even answering until like 4 times and said "Well he is my bf" and I knew it was bs and she just used me and threw me away like nothing like all females do all the time. What sucks is I saw him walk alone to the restroom and even outside and I had too many inhibitions to go in and just pepper spray him in the face and punch him, I was just so depressed and down I didnt even have the will to move literally I felt so played. my mind literally shut down I am so weak mentally. Part of it is he was bigger and in a lot better shape and the fact there were people around and the fact I was already so down I had no will. I even saw him like 2 weeks later and I approached him after he amde eye contact asking if he was the guy who told me to get lost at that other place with the black chick and he tried playing it off like he didnt know who Im talking about and I tried getting him toa dmit it was him by saying "hey i didnt know she had a bf she never told me" and he still didnt admit it was him. It pissed me off later because I realzied I am so guillible that I actually believed it at the time and for a while I actually believed it wasnt actually him or hoped it wasnt so I didnt have to save my reality at the time or something. I dont even know what my head thinks sometimes I got this voice who brings me down all the time and makes me back out.

[PolakoMafia]

The other problem and demon I have to overcome to save my reality is emphany. I am too nice of a guy and as you guys know nice guys finish last. When someone shows me any sign of kindness no matter what theyve done before and what my plan is by approaching them I back out due to the kindness negating all the previous stuff theyve done, and Ill even shake hands to someone who did something to me or my enemy if they extend their hand, I never not shook someone';s hand when they extended it it is like the hardest thing for me not to do all my impulses make me shake it.

[punamusta]

The other problem and demon I have to overcome to save my reality is emphany. I am too nice of a guy and as you guys know nice guys finish last. When someone shows me any sign of kindness no matter what theyve done before and what my plan is by approaching them I back out due to the kindness negating all the previous stuff theyve done

That's because you seem to seek approval and acceptance from people. And at the same time you can't even accept and approve yourself.

And being a nice guy is a good thing. If others are too dumb to see that, you still don't need to turn yourself to be like them. It's easy to be mean to people, but harder to be nice to others.

[razbojnik]

The other problem and demon I have to overcome to save my reality is emphany. I am too nice of a guy and as you guys know nice guys finish last. When someone shows me any sign of kindness no matter what theyve done before and what my plan is by approaching them I back out due to the kindness negating all the previous stuff theyve done

That's because you seem to seek approval and acceptance from people. And at the same time you can't even accept and approve yourself.

And being a nice guy is a good thing. If others are too dumb to see that, you still don't need to turn yourself to be like them. It's easy to be mean to people, but harder to be nice to others.

LOL. You know how fucking easy it is to be nice? You know how fucking hard it is to be mean and effective at the same time? I can easily be mean and nice at the same time. My only problem is being mean to those who are being mean to me. I can talk shit, I know how to insult them, thing is I'm pissed at that second, heart beating, I get confused, and I lack words at this moment. I can't be mean with words if I'm pumping adrenaline. I'm going into fight mode. This is the part where I slap someone by accident.

[PolakoMafia]

WHat's crazy is that there are even young girls with more courage than I have. I was sitting in the park when they had a farmers market here last week and saw a young girl start walking away form this group and another girl started following her and talking shet to her and these lame ass people started cheering it on most of them were either teenage delinquents or hobos but anyway and she started running at the other girl and the girl turned and punched her right in the face. Than the other girl must have been a bit shocked and backed off and went back to her group. It just maases me that girls like that actually exist, that have more balls and courage than 90% of grown men do. I should have went up to her and tried getting to know her but I had other things on my mind. I tried grabbing and manhandling a bit and intimidating this kid who lives on the streets and is the bastard child of a hobo mom who gives her daughter and his sister alcoohol and who is like the queen of the hobos. He constantly with his little brother harasses people and steals things. And he tried getting a bunch of hobos to jump me once because I didnt pay him the 10 bucks I promised for telling me info who stole my psp (he didnt directly tell me the answer so I didnt feel the need to) and they all almost gained up on me and he or his bro even tried to get a punch in. Anyway I backed out right away (as always you guys know backing out should be my middle name) cause when I said "hey" and he turned around he tried to be real cool to me and give me a hand and all and I just felt so bad and started making up a story about his brother being the one I saw steal something and totally backpeddled. But at least I didnt shake his hand when he extended it and had a firm voice, thats the only thing positive that came out of that original plan. And I think youre right I do seek approval from society. Thats why I can never get young girls I think because of society because society and online forums constantly tell me not to (young I mean around 15).

[razbojnik]

WHat's crazy is that there are even young girls with more courage than I have. I was sitting in the park when they had a farmers market here last week and saw a young girl start walking away form this group and another girl started following her and talking shet to her and these lame ass people started cheering it on most of them were either teenage delinquents or hobos but anyway and she started running at the other girl and the girl turned and punched her right in the face. Than the other girl must have been a bit shocked and backed off and went back to her group. It just maases me that girls like that actually exist, that have more balls and courage than 90% of grown men do. I should have went up to her and tried getting to know her but I had other things on my mind. I tried grabbing and manhandling a bit and intimidating this kid who lives on the streets and is the bastard child of a hobo mom who gives her daughter and his sister alcoohol and who is like the queen of the hobos. He constantly with his little brother harasses people and steals things. And he tried getting a bunch of hobos to jump me once because I didnt pay him the 10 bucks I promised for telling me info who stole my psp (he didnt directly tell me the answer so I didnt feel the need to) and they all almost gained up on me and he or his bro even tried to get a punch in. Anyway I backed out right away (as always you guys know backing out should be my middle name) cause when I said "hey" and he turned around he tried to be real cool to me and give me a hand and all and I just felt so bad and started making up a story about his brother being the one I saw steal something and totally backpeddled. But at least I didnt shake his hand when he extended it and had a firm voice, thats the only thing positive that came out of that original plan. And I think youre right I do seek approval from society. Thats why I can never get young girls I think because of society because society and online forums constantly tell me not to (young I mean around 15).

What the fuck are you talking about?

[PolakoMafia]

Im talking about my situation with mental blocks and low self worth and replying to punamusta.

[razbojnik]

Im talking about my situation with mental blocks and low self worth and replying to punamusta.

I've had those. Only remedy was this lifestyle.

[razbojnik]

I've never felt worthless or unimportant. I've always felt I was the one for something. I'm narcassistic. --> I'm perfect.

As for the mental blocks, lol, oh..

Well think of it this way, if it wasn't for the meds and mental blocks I would've been in juvi by now.

[CheGuevara]

Well think of it this way, if it wasn't for the meds and mental blocks I would've been in juvi by now.

[razbojnik]

Well think of it this way, if it wasn't for the meds and mental blocks I would've been in juvi by now.

SHPARU

[IronManCash10]

Polako,

Start practising some internal martial art (not any of that MMA/kickboxing type of shit, but something real with philosophical side in it). And not in some mall with some silly teacher, but in some real school with real teacher. Then listen to him and read Sun-Tzu's "Art of War" to understand the philosophy of fighting. So many young men think that to be a man you must punch the lights out of anyone who disrespects you in any way. The real man is a man who don't need to fight. Look ways to avoid the fights and not how to beat up someone. Everytime you have avoided a fight, you have won. And you shouldn't feel bad about it.

if thats the type of shit your into, i would check out ninjitsu.

[punamusta]

Polako,

Start practising some internal martial art (not any of that MMA/kickboxing type of shit, but something real with philosophical side in it). And not in some mall with some silly teacher, but in some real school with real teacher. Then listen to him and read Sun-Tzu's "Art of War" to understand the philosophy of fighting. So many young men think that to be a man you must punch the lights out of anyone who disrespects you in any way. The real man is a man who don't need to fight. Look ways to avoid the fights and not how to beat up someone. Everytime you have avoided a fight, you have won. And you shouldn't feel bad about it.

if thats the type of shit your into, i would check out ninjitsu.

Ninjitsu is a good style. One of my friend is a big fan of it after he started to train it couple of years ago. I've trained few different internal martial arts, and think that Wing Chun with it's Taoist philosphy is best for me.

[PolakoMafia]

I really en joy reading stories about Sun lutang. He really seems like someone who was at peace with himself.





I really enjoy reading the stories and watching movies but I havent found much evidence of effectiveness in internal or many chiense styles at all. For instance in the vid clips I saw they try blocking stries by grabbing the punch with both hands at the wrist level, its like they totally only expect weak and slow punches to the body or something. But the mystique is still there. I just dont have any confidence in myself or my skill no mattered how long I practice I knew I was useless cause I never had what it takes to be ruthless.

[IronManCash10]

its actually perfect for fighting bigger people you cant always knock a motherfucker out you can break his arm or something

[PolakoMafia]

Ive never seen any good sparring vids of it.

[IronManCash10]

and itll jus be even more deadly if your already a big buy. whatever form of fighting you learn this is definetly something worth keeping in your arsenal itll make you more balanced and quick with your mind also and give you that extra edge if you happen to be outnumbered.

[PolakoMafia]

I would never have the balls to pick a fight or even insult people if they outnumber me. Ive learned a good lesson by getting jumped by that mixed ethnicity wise teenage crew where that black guy fought me even though I had no beed with him and the white guy i ahd beef with didnt want to get his hands dirty and they sent him at me (prolly cause he was the biggest one there) and after I was tied up with him and trie dputting him in a choke they all swarmed me.

[punamusta]

I really enjoy reading the stories and watching movies but I havent found much evidence of effectiveness in internal or many chiense styles at all. For instance in the vid clips I saw they try blocking stries by grabbing the punch with both hands at the wrist level, its like they totally only expect weak and slow punches to the body or something. But the mystique is still there.

Of course internal styles work as well. What Chinese style are you referring to? There's so many different styles from China. Some of them are more straigth-forward than others. But if this is going towards an argument of what style is the most effective, you can count me out, because it's fukking boring, completelly pointless and has 100 equally right answers. The best style is what suits you the best.

I just dont have any confidence in myself or my skill no mattered how long I practice I knew I was useless cause I never had what it takes to be ruthless.

Ruthless people rarely become a great martial artists. They may become great fighters, but rarely great martial artists.

its actually perfect for fighting bigger people you cant always knock a motherfucker out you can break his arm or something

That's true, although I personally would avoid having to try some lock on a bigger guy. I think that hitting (and that means constantly hitting the opponenet until he's in the ground, not leaving him a chance to hit back at all) the areas that are same for every people, muscular or not, is most effective. Like throat, face, balls, and various dim-mak points (death points or nerve points, whatever it is called in English) around the body of course, but that also has it own risks. I usually rather don't fight with a bigger guy, hahah.

[razbojnik]

[PolakoMafia]

Ruthless people rarely become a great martial artists. They may become great fighters, but rarely great martial artists.

Guo YunShen?

[DutchGangster69]

some guy twisted my nipples in computer class so i threw him into a monitor and got suspended...thats some shiz...